And sometimes, you just realize you fell for your ex again..

Dang it.. well the title of this post is pretty self explanatory. There is always that one you parted with on really great terms and you stay friends and off and on a little more. He's the one you can always hang out with even if you've gotten in a nasty fight the day before. He's the one that will always be at your side in a moment even when all hope is lost. He's the one you don't have to be IN love with to love. He's the one who knows all the inside jokes and all your friends inside and out. He's the one who has his own nicknames for and from all of your friends. He's the one who never leaves when the day seems pointless, he helps you find something to do. He's the one who wants to stay in a class with you enough that even though he's failing, he'd rather spend the time with you. He's the one you always thought you'd end up with when all is said and done. He's the one you want to take you to your senior prom and have multiple awkward porch scenes with. He's the one who can make your dreams come true. He's the one you wish for every time a lash falls or the clock strikes 11:11. He's the one that makes you want to be the best you possibly can just to win a smile. He's the one that has no idea you feel all this about him. He's the one that all your friends say can make you happiest. He's the one that after an entire day together, you can't stop smiling.
He's the one you dream about.
He's the one.

I've noticed as I write to whoever reads this, I find out little things about myself. Through the writing I do here, I become myself. I want to keep writing always to show the world this is the person I have become and will always be. I'm not just the girl who spends her days at a chiropractic clinic and nights spending time with those I hold dear and dreaming of the one that will come someday. I'm much more than that. The stereotype of a little mormon girl will always be what people originally think of me, and sometimes they will be right. I want certain things, and don't want certain others, but that doesn't make me good or evil, that makes me human. I am Mormon, and dang proud of it, but I'm still human. I can make whatever choices I want, my faith does not bind me. I will make choices that will make things best for me in the end. That just usually happens to be the way that I've been brought up. I hear people say all the time that if the church wasn't true it would have disappeared long ago. I believe that. Now I've strayed completely away from the subject again, I hope noone actually takes the time to read all my crazy mixted up thoughts. Sometimes these things just happen.

World, it's been a  good day, sleep sweet.

As time goes by.

Everybody changes a little bit every now and then, even those who claim not to change are changed simply by declaring themselves unchangeable. For those of you who have perused my older posts there are reoccuring blonde siblings in many of the pictures. Those two have been my most dear and silliest friends throughout the years. Just this last fall, Brittany left for college and it was a major change in my life as well, me and Tyler have stayed the best of friends and still manage to find things to discuss even after spending the whole day together. It was wonderful, but some things just never are the same. As most college students do at Christmas time, Brittany came home for a visit. Today I was able to spend all afternoon and evening with them in their home doing what we used to do quite frequently. We sat around and talked and ate good food and watched movies and laughed with each other and swapped stories of our new lives. It was a glimpse of the way things were once upon a time and a bit of hope that some things stay constant in our lives even when everything else seems to go wrong or changes a bit. True Friendship is always something to count on and I am most blessed to have friends like Brittany and Tyler who will always be there for me when I need them most.

Cheers to best friends, may they always be in our lives.

Peace out, World.

While still living under this roof..

If you have ever been a teenager on the brink of adulthood, commonly referred to as the end of your 17th year until you move out of your parents home then you've heard the "not while you're still living under my roof" speech. Whether they are talking about curfew or who and what you choose to spend your time doing, it's all the same in the parental vs. teenager mindset.
There is my point of view in this matter as well. I am one of those that has reached the age where you suddenly become "old" in the eyes of your fellow students yet am still living under the same roof as my parents. Though my parents are not anywhere near the terrors I've heard that parents can be, It is necessary once you reach a certain age to get out. In my experience those that have not broken free of their parents by going to college or going to a far off place, even just to the next city and making a place for themselves have hit a wall in their lives, granted this is not true with every case, but as I said, In my experience. I guess this is what my mind has decided to settle on thinking about this evening. What if I never get out? Not like this is a terrible place to live, but what if I spend the rest of my days in my medium paying job as a C.A. and not progress at all? There is no staying the same, if I'm not moving forward, I'm moving backward. So I'll work on moving forward. My immediate plan is to get out of this states, rip up my roots and run as far as my legs/wheels/wings will carry me. I just want to do something new and see things I've never seen before.
I'd like to go to Rome one day. More than anything I'd like to go to Rome and Venice. Just the thoought of those places gets me all excited, the history, the architecture, the people, the food, all of it is just a terribly exciting prospect in my mind. One day I will go and who knows, I might still be writing on this thing. You may all get to read about it.

If I don't accomplish any of my other dreams I have for this life, I will go to Rome and Venice and live under those roofs for some time.

Goodnight, World.

Another Day, Another Time

In this world, there is very little that is precious and sacred anymore and there are always those people seeking after your few precious things to cheapen them and make them open to the public. I don't know who reads this, but please remember that life is precious and those of us who are fortunate enough to have family and friends ought to remember that from time to time.
Tonight I've got a story for everybody, I have been dating this guy for the past 3 weeks and I broke up with him today. I feel bad for the guy because he was a lot more invested into our relationship then I ever was, but It was never like that was a secret. Some people are just meant to be in relationships at certain points in their lives, and some people aren't. This is one of those points that I'm not. So I'm not going to alter everything just to make one person happy. Everything will be fine and he'll find someone significantly better than me, alls well that ends well I suppose. Now I better get some sleep because it's back to the grind monday morning tomorrow :/
Peace out world.

It's that time of night

So I've decided that this is the time of night where all my thoughts that have been racing through my head during the day all come crashing down at once to make me become silent and ponder everything meaningful in my life. Tonight the favorite topic of thought is my dreams. I keep having the strangest dreams which is weird because usually I leave that to kelsey and she keeps me laughing with all of hers, from pregnancies to walking onto alien spaceships, there is never a dull moment with her around. Mine as of late have been about old romances, I attribute most of these to still falling asleep clutching my favorite stuffed animal from my first and only love. I always thought it was funny how our minds find attatchments to inanimate objects when we're feeling melancholy. I suppose that's enough ranting for one evening, I think I'm going to like this whole laptop thing. Sleep sweet, world.

Christmastime is here

So thankful for all the lovely presents and time I've gotten to spend with my family. Especially my new laptop that I am currently blogging on :) I see much blogging in my future and for any of you who choose to read this, Merry Christmas :) I've got some downloading to do!