this is strange

 

February 18, 2011

Empty, unimpressive, baren. 

I'm ready for a new adventure, Christopher might be coming to visit and that would definitely be an adventure. I'm sick of things that are anticlimatic. I am so incredibly frustrated that my best friends refuse to go on our senior trip or to prom which means I'll be going solo or with people I don't really want to be with. I'm just pissed at them. I wish friendship was fair, you give a little, they give a little and it works out, you're both happy. This is not the case more often than not. I spent my day reading and finished two books, I haven't been that enthralled with a series since Harry Potter. The Percy Jackson series is kinda great, it's raw and immature which is exactly what middle school age students are. I'm already on book 4 and I started the first one on monday. I have no idea where I found time to read 3 books. Probably because I was an immature brat and just plugged into my ipod because I didn't want to deal with Kelsey and Yolanda. My bad. I just know when to not say anything. This is just that time of year, but we can't really not talk to each other because we have most of our classes together. It'd be ridiculous to sit right next to each other and say nothing. And I can't spend time with any of my other friends mostly because I don't know what kind of person Julia is turning into, but I don't think I like it. Then there is Kaylee who has always been there in my life, this never ending presence that I love dearly and I fear she is making the biggest mistake of her life. I can't spend time with her either because of that dirtbag she's dating who is just a big user. And oh hey, that takes care of the friends I've got. Don't even get me started on CW. I'm gonna sucker punch him one of these days. 

Sorry for the venting, I'm just so ridiculously upset currently and there really isn't anything I or anyone else can do about it. I hope my acceptance letter from Provo comes soon to give me something solid to look forward to. I can't wait for Andrea to come home so I can hug somebody everyday. I think that's what it boils down to, I just need a hug haha it's strange how many healing powers reside in one simple hug. 

I'm done rambling, Goodnight World, day with Jen and Nick tomorrow: prom dress shopping/movie/furniture for the new house!/Coulsons b-day party :)