February 10, 2011
Things like these cannot be staged.
I think I'm taking tomorrow off too.. from all the craziness and rude people. From best friends who have the ability to drive me absolutely up the wall. From all the pressure of my oncoming doom of college and life. From thoughts of never seeing people I love again. From disappointments like Canada. From Prom. From Valentines day (which by the way I want to punch everyone) From Seminary. Pretty much from everything. I'm just fed up and have senioritis like nobodies business.. this could be a bad thing. I've still got a couple months and the sisters come home soonish so there's that good news to look forward to. And Jen gets her house soon-ish, and Chris is coming to my graduation in May. who knows, it could be amazing. I just wish I was able to be happy towards Kelsey again. After she canceled our Canada trip I've just been so depressed, that's what I was working for, it was going to be our big bang, that was going to be the thing that we remembered about each other for the rest of our lives. We were going to have so many crazy fun stories of all the ridiculous things we were doing. I am just having a difficult time coming to terms with the fact that all the money I've saved and the time I've spent thinking about this trip has all been for nothing. But I'll get over it. Eventually. One day. haha I'm working with God on this whole positivity thing, it's a work in progress. Sorry if you just sat there and read all of this.. haha there's a few minutes of your life you'll never get back.
Goodnight World. I'm ready to start my new life. I hope I get accepted to BYU-Provo!!
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