Don't be alarmed. Probably best to just skip this one.

 

September 2, 2011

Drove to Beaver today, it's whatever. 

Saw people I haven't seen since basically before I can remember. And dang it's nice to be with family, even if they aren't technically mine.

I'm going to rant for a moment. 

Ya know what sucks? Wanting to tell your ex best friend everything and wishing you were still best friends, but knowing it was probably for the best anyway. ALSO wanting to tell most of your current friends to shove off and that they are making life altering mistakes. ALSO being in love with the same guy for two years, but knowing that he's all wrong for you and also has a girlfriend he's in love with, but trying not to say anything because I'd rather have him in my life like this than not at all. ALSO having all your peers go off to college. ALSO that you can't get over the rejection from the one college you wanted to go to only to realize it was a blessing in disguise, but now you've got to figure out what the heck you're supposed to do with your life while you sit at home in a place where you know a grand total of 5 people excluding family in some form or relation and half of them aren't speaking to you for some unforeseen reason and the other half are way way too busy right now. ALSO that you want to buy a car so you can stop bumming off your grandparents, but can't mentally spend two thousand dollars on something when you have NO money coming in. ALSO that you have the time to sit around and think about all of these things that suck. 

I'm done.